Opening Up (Logan-time skip)

[Raine Taika Fae]

Raine was up in her classroom, organizing the teacups, tealeaves, and glass orbs. Though she, as a seer, knew that everyone believed that divination was fake, she knew different. Each type of seer had their own form of amplifying their ability, some used tea leaves, others glass orbs, others still used crystals or random objects. Raine, however, was a strong seer who only needed to use her mind. Her prophecies came at random times, she did not need any other objects to use her power, it just came to her. She knew, though, that finding young seers required the use of these objects and younger seers, unless sparked by something big, need something to amplify their sight. She paused for a second before a smile fell across her face. She turned to the door, "hello, Logan."

She had felt him with her sight, yes felt was the correct word, and knew he had come up to see her for some reason. The past two years had been... interesting. They had spent the whole time fighting each other and struggling to learn more and more of each other's past. She knew about some of his family life. She didn't not know about his first two sets of parents, but she had learned about the orphanage and his abuse there. Despite this, she never hinted to him that she knew. She didn't know exactly what he knew of her, but suspected he was still in her Hogwarts years. They were close. Closer than he really realized. She knew that her old attraction to him was growing steadily.

[Logan Greyson Smith]

Over the past two years Logan and Raine had fought, laughed, and were together, dating to her, but to him, just manipulating her.  At least that was his outer shell excuse that he gave.  Now what deep, deep, deep within him said... well... that was another story.  Over the last years, Logan had found out that though growing up with muggles, she always believed in magic, the way she talked about magic, and her parents.  Logan hadn't offered up any information, but she seemed to pull it out of him.  Because of her seer powers.  Which were, indeed, a threat to his outer barriers.  And even inner barriers.  But he was extremely curious about her, about finding out about her, because she was the first one ever that he could not tell their personality from a simple glance, and even now he hadn't learned much about her, besides her parents, her belief in magic before finding out she was magical, and a good guess on how she got her seer powers, from putting various small pieces of information together over time, and from looks when she talked about it.  Logan lied occasionally about himself, because as a couple they would have to learn things about each other, so he did.  But she usually was able to call him on his lies, and had to tell the truth most of the time, but he still was quite closed off, but much more open with her than others. 

However, over the past month or so, he began to realize just how far she had penetrated his protective barriers.  In fact, just the night before he was in his hotel room, a muggle one, thinking about it.  Raine had distracted his hyper-focused mind, and had interrupted his thoughts many times over their time together, once almost making it so that someone nearly got away.  His perfect record was still intact though.  Barely.  For the first time since his adoptive parents died, he had dropped his shields, all alone last night, and was extremely scared of what he found out was deep in him, where the real him was hidden away.  It didn't take long before Logan had lost it, and put up the barriers quickly.  He had found out how he felt truly about Raine.  It wasn't just physical attraction either.  The reason he was so fascinated with her wasn't just because he couldn't read her.  If that was the truth, he would have lost interest long ago.  But it was something in him that had fallen for her, and wanted to know everything about her that kept him going with this.  And so.  He came her after that extreme fright last night, to confront Raine and do what was the safest for himself. 

"Hello Raine," Logan said with a straight face, fairly monotone, in his deep tone, "We need to talk."

[Raine Taika Fae]

Raine’s smile faded, something was very, very wrong. Her heart started beating very quickly. He knew she had gotten in. He knew how far she had gotten in. He knew everything. Her mind flashed back to her childhood, the only times she remembered being happy before she met him. Until she turned four and her whole life turned upside down. Albus did his best to help her, but she wasn’t happy. She was never happy, lost in the hurt she felt before entering Hogwarts. Lost in remembering Mathew. Lost in her hurt and anger of the past. Logan began to delve deeper in her mind and she shoved the hurt below, with him she mostly forgot it, even when she had to hide it from him. She knew that now she would lose it.

“Logan, what’s wrong,” she knew what it was, but she could always ask, and hope that she was wrong. She knew he was going to stop talking to her, avoid her, push her out and lock himself inside again. She couldn’t let that happen. She couldn’t let the only person who could see inside of her go. No matter what happened she’d have to keep chasing him. To keep digging deeper into his shell, to keep him digging deeper into hers. They both wanted someone to love them, to discover them, and to bring them out. They were both just too scared of it. But she had to keep trying to get him to dig down in her.

[Logan Greyson Smith]

He knew that she knew what he was coming for, if not he was very wrong about everything that he found out last night when he made the dangerous dive into his own mind.  Nearly died from it... maybe that was a bit overdramatic.  But it felt like it.  He also found out that the persona he had thrown on when they first met was close to what really was at his core... not quite.  No, he wasn't that talkative, but he was fairly secretive, obviously, even at his core, and he was a charmer, who would smile and have a small laugh occasionally.  He didn't know that until last night either.  But it wasn't like anyone would see that.  Especially right now.  For his own protection, he had to get away, and heal the barriers, get her out, then perhaps he could see her again.  It was a definite fright, and he wasn't going to let that happen again.  The only ones he loved died on him, or betrayed and abandoned him.

"You already know," Logan replied with his straight face still prevailing against his deep, deep down self wanting to frown or let tears fall, refusing its every request.  It was that stupid voice way down there that got him in this mess in the first place.  If he hadn't opened himself up last night and let himself see what was lingering inside him, it would have gone on, to the point he could not reverse it.  So it was a good thing.  As long as it wasn't already too late.  "You will not see me anymore.  We cannot continue this relationship."

[Raine Taika Fae]

Raine sighed, she had seen this coming for a long time now. She knew that he had to open up. He had to become that wonderful, charming man he was inside, he just wouldn’t let himself. She had hoped that he wouldn’t noticed until it was too late for him to turn around. Too late for him to try to rebuild the fortress. But he was so wonderful inside, she wished he would realize that. And that he would realize that unlike everyone else, she wouldn’t leave on him. She couldn’t leave him.

“Knowing and hearing are two different things,” she said, her voice quiet and unfocused, like it was when they first met. Her shell was reforming, she was returning to the way she was, because she lost the only thing that kept her shell open. “I won’t stop trying, Logan,” she said as her eyes unfocused and her mind retreated back into her hole. “I love you,” it was the first time she has said it, and quite possibly the only time she would. She knew it would push him even farther away, but she needed to say it once.

She felt her mind slip away, the same feeling she got when she was going to read a true prophecy. She never knew what they said, only that she spoke them. All she knew was blackness and hurt.

Deep within yourself you hide,
Two alike, two alone.
Leaving now, returning later.
Peace will come to both
When fairy and artisan unite
Within rings of pure gold.

Her mind slipped back into seeing the world for a second, just long enough to see Logan's face, before her eyes rolled back into her head and she collapsed to the floor. Because her sight was so incredibly strong, her physical body could not handle the magic pulsing through her when she had prophecies and it's reaction was to deem her unconscious while it repaired itself. It was a normal, yet annoying, side affect of her sight.

[Logan Greyson Smith]

That person somewhere deep within him, wanted to return those three little words.  Those three little words that scared him so much more than anything had ever before.  And he didn't expect to hear them.  Those three words hit his ears, like a melody from a beautiful song.  However, everyone had left him, even when they said they wouldn't.  His brother promised he would return.  But he never did.  His parents said they would not leave him, and would always love him, even if he hated them.  But they left him too.  Left him to that orphanage where he went through hell.  He couldn't trust anyone, not even Raine, because in the end she would let him down too.  Right?  There was no way to tell if she wouldn't leave him. 

"You have to stop trying," Logan replied coldly, "You obviously are too stupid to realize it.  It's all been an act.  I've been just using you."  Logan paused, his eyes turning cold themselves, the barrier now stronger than ever at this moment, though inside the tough barrier, he was quite upset, and slapping himself for this, but it was for his own protection.  He was the most important.  If he were to just let her get in deeper it would destroy him, and the world would lose his fantastic mind forever, and he would never get his revenge against his brother.  That was not going to happen.  He wouldn't allow it.  Three little words could change it, three words he truly believed, but could he bring himself to say them?  "You repulse me.  I hate you.  I never want to see your face ever again, Raine."  That wasn't it.  He couldn't say it.  He couldn't.  It was just too much. 

However, then she went into a trance, and his eyes widened.  He listened carefully, knowing what it meant, or at least what he believed what it meant.  But he didn't want to believe it.  He, just for a split second, let himself imagine a life where he and Raine could be together.  Nothing in their way, no barrier to protect him.  No need for revenge.  A life where John never killed their parents, and they lived happily as a family should be, and then the two fell in love, got married and were happy.  But that wasn't this life.  This life was full of hate and hurt.  This life brought the end to anything he dared to love or care about. 

When she fainted, he quickly ran up and caught her, holding her, though crouching down so they were close to the ground.  Logan was kneeling holding her up a little bit, knowing it was simply a side effect of her prophecy.  He lowered his head, so his forehead was on hers.  "I'm sorry.  I just can't..." Logan sighed, "I do... love you... too, Raine."  He gently placed his lips upon hers, before pulling back after a moment looking at her unconscious face.  He gently set her down on the ground, before he rose, straightening his jacket, and the tie on the suit underneath, before he turned away and began to walk away.  Logan glanced back for a moment, before he willed himself to leave.  This way, she couldn't follow him at least, for now.  He didn't allow himself another glance, and so he continued walking away, getting away from her.  Nearly breaking into a run, just in case.

[Raine Taika Fae]

Though unconscious, Raine’s mind absorbed the words he spoke to her. It was another side effect of her sight. She could not hear her own prophecies, but she could hear anything spoken while in her sight induced coma. She slowly awoke, probably a few hours later, feeling the heartbreak that came from what just happened. She knew this would happen, but she would always wish it hadn’t. She wondered what the prophecy said… if that was what inspired his outburst or simply her fainting. “I will never stop trying,” she whispered to herself in that dreamy voice of hers.

She slowly worked her way into a sitting position and then forced herself to stand, despite the fact that she was dizzy and the world spun around her. “I have to, have to find him.” She closed her eyes for a second, looking for the feel of his mind, looking for her Logan. But he hid too well, too strongly. She couldn’t find him. She felt the sobs before she heard them. She’d never felt this way before. Not even being raped as a child had hurt her so much.